Eyes cast downward,
Cool observation from above.
Narcissistic delusions,
Dimensional ripples of pain.
Extend out compassion,
Flailing helpless creatures.
Drowning in sorrow,
Oceanic floods.
Emotional intolerance,
Dysfunctional regulation.
Pictures glued to sockets,
Ripped sticker residue remains.
Occupy the mind,
Present in the body.
Astral planes explored,
Cultivating stillness.
Guised as a virtue,
Tenets for control.
Forced to live,
Eternally enslaved.
Respect your captors,
Compassionate creators.
Selfless beings need servants,
Failed dreams thrust upon them.
Carry their burdens,
Serve them your flesh.
Disappointment embedded,
In the blade by your neck.
Disowned and disrespected,
Unfilial swine.
Kin no longer,
Dependent bloodlines severed.
Perpetually unwanted,
Tried to give it away.
It’s constantly eating,
Work to keep alive.
Make it labor,
Leech with no worth.
Cost of raising a child,
Earn back with interest.
Fuck it for pleasure,
Exploit it for value.
Use and abuse it,
Burden of your creation.
Bend your knees,
Crooked back,
Held hands,
Shut your trap.
Close your eyes,
Block it out,
Transcend above,
Pray your heart out.
Plead with the Father,
Beg him to stop.
Boundaries broken,
Frozen bodies burn.
I was never a fan of all the implicit and explicit “[F]ather-worship” in typical 12-step programs, so I made up my own rules.
12 Rules for Living
⁃ 1. Practice good posture
⁃ 2. Meditate and stretch
⁃ 3. Mornings are for you
⁃ 4. Work before the sun goes down
⁃ 5. Be thoughtful in every moment
⁃ 6. Slow your breathing
⁃ 7. Fill your cup with love and give away the overflow
⁃ 8. Stay curious and inquisitive
⁃ 9. Sing out emotions
⁃ 10. Connect to others with tears and laughter
⁃ 11. Actualize your vision for the world
⁃ 12. Align your thoughts with your actions and be guided by emotion
What is my body,
But a colonial land?
Rape and rob,
Take and exploit.
Your seeds won’t grow,
In my soil.
I’ll never bloom,
How you want me to.
Steal what’s not yours,
Pay no reparations.
Fill your gilded chambers,
With my intimate treasures.
Tear my flesh,
Break my bones.
Build me into a castle.
I’m just raw materials for construction.
Cool leather seats
Press my cheek
A road trip underway
Front seats bicker
Back seat supine
Belt buckles cut my flesh
Doctor to doctor
Nothing is wrong
But her vitality is fading
Numb apathy
Air conditioning
Sleek silver sedan
My captors
My saviors
My killers
My drivers
They scream at me,
From my side.
Their voices embedded,
In my flesh.
The lives that life forgot.
Pain with nowhere to go,
Turned inward,
Exploding organs.
Numbed sensitivity.
Infected callous.
Pierce the skin,
Let the sorrow ooze.
Their deaths are overlooked.
Their stories, rewritten.
I’ll live to spite you.
I’ll make it for myself.
We need you, soldier.
The war rages on.
Your experiences, our artillery.
Your agony, our weaponry.
Rhythms clashing,
Cacophony of sounds.
Unnatural activity,
Sound waves close in.
Escape the noise,
Return to nature.
Push out your heart,
Embrace the expanse.
Chilling voids,
Cruel apathy.
Human behavior,
Inconsequential.
Eliminate yourself,
Join the nothing.
Connect your soul,
To all of existence.
Winter’s death.
Violent beginnings.
Bare earth hides life.
Frozen in slumber.
Break through numbness.
Nervous needles.
Lay down roots.
Buried security.
Cautious sprouts.
Unraveling leaves.
Test the light.
Trust vitality.
Chiu on This 