Perpetually unwanted,
Tried to give it away.
It’s constantly eating,
Work to keep alive.
Make it labor,
Leech with no worth.
Cost of raising a child,
Earn back with interest.
Fuck it for pleasure,
Exploit it for value.
Use and abuse it,
Burden of your creation.
Bend your knees,
Crooked back,
Held hands,
Shut your trap.
Close your eyes,
Block it out,
Transcend above,
Pray your heart out.
Plead with the Father,
Beg him to stop.
Boundaries broken,
Frozen bodies burn.
Blankly stare,
No meows escape,
Inoffensive in her beauty.
Doll her up,
Dress her down,
Feline chameleon changing.
Girl or cat?
She’ll never tell,
But greet her if you must.
Acknowledge her name,
Voice what she cannot,
I see you, hello there, Kitty.
Ghastly forms,
Shadow figures,
Flitting at the edge of my eyes.
Dimensional portal,
Unknown world,
Divorced from this reality.
Don’t look up.
Don’t look behind you.
Mirrors hold the true self.
Hold my gaze,
Dry those eyes,
Pretend like it never happened.
Reflecting back,
The evil done,
Is it living inside of me?
Mirror, mirror,
Tell me.
What do you see when you look at me?
As long as you had respite for the night,
You were willing to destroy
The rest of my life.
Whirlwind romance,
Elopement in Vegas.
Married too young,
Knocked up within the year.
The kids just keep coming.
Promises deferred.
Sell them out.
What’s the harm?
You can’t go back to the womb,
But you can create a Garden of Eden
Wherever you go.
A screaming corpse,
Persistent aches,
Dead little girls who exist inside me.
Voiceless gasps,
Writhing ghosts,
Raped at birth.
Death before life.
Dominated, subjugated,
Tortured and used.
The girls are dust now.
From the ashes, I’ll haunt you.
When things get still,
Your heartbeat races.
A peaceful evening,
But not for you.
Work all day,
Fear at night.
Exhaustion creeps,
But your eyes stay open.
Your body stays rigid,
The glow of the light,
Grows steadily wider,
Until a figure blocks its entrance.
Pretend you’re asleep.
The creature senses movement.
Breath flutters your hair.
Its stench fills your lungs.
If it wants you, it’s over.
The monster always wins.
No guardian to protect you,
From all that stalk the night.
In the sunlight,
Your father.
In the moonlight,
Your terror.
I’m sick again.
I need to throw up.
Vomit you out of me.
Fingers in my throat,
Slimy spit down my arm,
Press and purge.
I won’t let these seeds take root,
Corrupting my soil.
I cast out everything you put in me,
The taint on my soul.
Not a word out of you,
Your voice is annoying.
Nothing to hear,
Means nothing to say.
Stop asking questions,
Accept it as-is.
No say whatsoever,
Flow with the madness.
When he hurts you,
Be silent.
So we can blame you,
For not speaking up.
Sink in my teeth,
Dig in my nails,
Struggle harder.
But he’s too big.
Kick your feet,
Wiggle out of his arms,
It’s over.
He’s holding your head down.
Don’t look.
Don’t feel.
Don’t live.
Just die.
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