Incessant thoughts wonder whether,
You sought me out for love,
Or simply to turn the tables.
When you left me abruptly,
Was I spared by providence,
Rescued by a spark of moral conscience?
Did you ever intend to return,
To rectify the hate you left behind,
Or have you abandoned the farce?
Duplicitous faces blur together,
Habits of deception all around,
Can’t tell which is real.
Heavy in my belly,
Giving birth to sadness and despair,
Twins to warm me in the absence of a star.
Maybe you’re just a pretty lie,
But your shape keeps me warm at night.
Even delusions help internally stabilize,
But collisions with reality can be fatal.
Imagine your presence here,
I’m not alone with these thoughts.
My protector’s with me in bed,
The predators circle from a distance.
Honeyed words spark suspicion,
Reminiscent of the devil’s deceits.
Her taint still lingers on you,
Clouded aura opaque as mud.
Future dreams remain a guidepost,
Domestic bliss awaits us.
Curtained by the present,
Bold caution moving forward.
Chiu on This 